Next Station....

I just can't seem to find the words to express my feelings right now after the official completion of Phase I of my medical study. The past 2 years plus in university had been quite an experience. One chapter ended and another begun. The phase II of my study will commence in early February. I am grateful that I have met many interesting people over the past years. To those whom I have stepped on their tails,I am sorry. To those who have helped me in any way,I am thankful. It's been quite an interesting 2 and a half years here. Probably the memory of me shouting at the whole batch during the last few weeks of study would be replayed times and again in the thoughts of some. If that's how I am remembered,don't worry, I won't mind. I really doubt I would ever forget my great orientation officers who did so much for a smooth transition into university life : Aiky, Raymond and Ue. I would never forget the pretty handiwork of YP and Caryn on my nails. The Kenyan was at its innocent best then too. Little did I know in my group then was another girl who shared the same birthday as me. Entering university then was quite an achievement for me, and now finishing the Phase I,I am quite relieved that I am halfway through the journey.The pressure on me passing the Final exam then was more than I can take with a few distractions here and there. I am glad that I have made it,although slightly below expectations,hopefully it will suffice to carry me through the next phase. Here I would like to thank all the people I met for making my university life such a great time. I also wish to apologise for the people I have hurt intentionally or unintentionally with my sarcasm. Best of luck to the batch of M2/03. You guys rocks!!!

D-day...

...so it has begun.

First Gate..

The first gate of a young hot-tempered,William-Hung like somewhat not so bright, aspiring medical student. I have been preaching in the library: 有读不怕FAIL!!!

A doc's meme?

Recently,I came across this "meme" on a public website,I thought it might be fun to spend a little time away from the books and notes. I am bored so I am doing this based on an assumption I have passed the coming exam and fast forward 3 years after,voila, I am called a doctor(pronounced "dog-ter") 1. Are you happy with how the government is treating you as a doctor ? No 2. Are you happy during your internship life ? It is one of the toughest I heard, maybe for the first few years I would be happy, come on,after all the books mugging,finally can get down to real business.

3. Are you happy with your income ? Definitely not,considering the amount of money my parents have put in.

4. Are you happy with what you provide to the people ? It should be the way round, I thought?Are they happy with what I provide?If you mean, the nasi lemak I just bought the nurses,they are very happy.

5. Are you happy with the hospital policy ? Regarding the treatment protocols you mean?They certainly have to abide by some WHO standard kinda thingie. If you mean office politics, oh well,it happens everywhere,but, considering I always try to stick with ZOPFAN, I won't have to watch over my back all the time.

6. Do you have a home of your own now ? Hmm....25 years,that's the house loan I have taken,currently co-own with the bank:p

7. Is your mortgage manageable ? Considering,I purchased a second hand Wira and a single storey terrace in Seremban. Yeah,they are manageable.

8. Are you happy with what you see around you ? The family who strived so hard to put me through hell in medical school, yes, I am happy to that they are alive and kicking. If hell wasn't that bad, heaven won't be this nice either.

9. Are you happy with the care that ordinary people get in Malaysia ? Again,I thought it should be the other way round.

10. Are you happy to see private hospital creating millionaire doctors , whilst the public doctors going nowhere ? They would look at Bill Gates the same way if they've achieved millionaire status. I wasn't born with a silver spoon.I am always taught to be grateful with what I have thanks to strong family upbringing. I won't be happy if they purposely show off their riches to me, of course. Of course, I am happy with what I have, a reliable car, a roof over my head and I just saw a girl whom I like yesterday.

11. Are you happy with the price you pay for your house hold, compare to the amount you get from your hard work ? This is a toughie. I am okay with the price I paid,but I am definitely not happy with my pay. The same goes for everywhere in the world anyway.

12. Are you happy with the hospital equipment and facilities back home ? Yes,I am happy with them. Some so-called modern medical equipments are overrated, they just cater to the paying rich to impress them, rather than having significant advantage diagnostic wise. The equipments provided at the government hospitals provide a broad coverage for the diseases commonly seen here according to epidemiologic study. Although it might be cruel to be unable to diagnose certain specific disease without some modern equipments, the money saved from purchasing those state of the art equipments can be used to save a lot more others. Sometimes, the greatest equipment can be your mind. My point? Greater good.

13. Are you happy with the on call rota ? Let just say I am sastified but not happy, it's not that I get 10 cases per hour throughout my call. IF it's 10 cases per hour, it's definitely not worth it.

14. Are you happy to see other people prosper not needing to go thru medical school ? Yeah,they never been through hell. They should be eternally grateful.

Answer all this question before you say what’s right or wrong about us not returning. You are no saint, I understand but some people called me devil while in medical school. Er...I am at a lower moral ground.

If you have the same opportunity Would you not do the same ? Since our circumstances vary,I would assume the opportunity is to tear the bond paper. My sponsors who happened to be my parents would not be happy, put it to an extreme, I am robbing them.IF I do rob them, they won't surrender me to the police too.Yet,I would choose to repay their deed. Their contract is something I can and will never tear. If my kids were to do that to me, I won't be happy either.

P.S. I am still a medical student,just passing my time. This is a blog,and this is also the net, anything written on the screen can be taken as real as elephant jumbo flying in the sky flapping their ears.

On a sidenote, Good luck to all M203s who would be having their exam on Monday. (Hey,you guys are supposed to wish me too if you are reading this:p)

Shall pen a post of gratitude after my exam.

Hope all is well.

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An Unwilling Friend

And so I heard from a common pal, You're back yet you never call, As if I wasn't here at all, Is it an order too tall? Used to hear your words and laughters, Now from you, not even a silent whisper, Friends we are on the paper, Sometimes I do deserve better, Why do I feel a tinge of bitter, Wishing for once we would be together, From the rain,you I will always shelter, It was you after all I am after. Years pass and thousands miles apart, You never gave me a chance to start, Time has mended a broken heart, What to say if I meet you in shopping mart? Diamonds on golden platter,I can never send, But always there to hear you gripe and rant, Life journey is full of twists and bends, After all, I am the unwilling friend. -Xiao_zhai- This poem is purely fictitious.Believe it or not.....