Post-Convocation

IMU convocation for the M2/03 batch was just over.No,I wasn't there.But that's the only thing that I can think of for the title after going through others' blogs.I am here in cold weather of Melbourne,preparing for my coming Finals in a week time.~~Sigh~~What a life...Gotta blog some shit today after which would be back to the books. Hmm......this convo word seemed to stir some memory in the time leading up to the EoS. A fellow batchmate would be remembered for her outstanding academic achievement in times to come.Like in 2020,people might be heard saying,"Wow,that's the girl who got the gold Medal.You know her?" Well,I thought I did quite a good job carving my name in another way.There are many ways to fame.I didn't do it ala some Paris persona style,of course.Who knows,in 2020,while strolling along the street,I might heard,"Wasn''t the guy who got the biggest temper in university last time?"If they can recall my name then,I might be elated.If they don't,I will prove why I got the title then.......

W for wolframium

Wolframium is another word for Tungsten. That's why Tungsten's symbol is W in the periodic table(Remember chemistry?) Thanks to wonders of internet,I can have that information in matters of seconds. Anyway,I won't be talking about the Tungsten that is used to make the bulbs filaments. It is about time to provide some insight into PDA usage. I am talking about my Tungsten T3 - a PDA,a personal digital assistant. Of course, I would much prefer an assistant that comes in "better packaging." *cough cough* I won't say my T3 looks great,it has experienced some quite rough use under the previous owner, but it sure does works great so far. I have to admit I quite like the sliding screen of T3 myself, compared to the new Palms which feature equivalent sized screen but non-slidable. I don't know I would trade a T3 for those bulkier looking PDAs. Of course,money is another problem. I have noticed Hehe... Like those PDAs-enabled-medical students, I have put it some medical studies related softwares. Currently in my PDA are

1. Harrisons 16th edition - well, I am not sure about the usage of Harrisons Principles of Internal Medicine elsewhere, but here, in Melbourne, it seemed to be the main source of reference for anything. I can't remember the umpteenth when in a PBL, the words "Oh,you will find it Harrisons";"I remembered reading in Harrisons....." and etc. What I have got in my PDA is not the full version of Harrisons. It was a concise version of it. It is handy to recall the facts you HAVE read in the bigger Harrisons. However,it is most handy when I need to sleep at night. On the PDA, read for a few minutes, and voila....a good night sleep ensues.
2. Oxford Handbook of Clinical Med 6 - Remember those yellow small Oxford books we always try to bring to postings and trainings in hope that if any unforeseen problems crop up,we will able to refer to it. I still haven't got around navigating the PDA version of it,seem to be quite an hassle. However,it has quite an interesting feature in Palms, the ability to add a personal topic. Thanks to Dr. House and broadband, I have added a new topic to mine - Naegleria meningoencephalitis, partly for the fun of it. Of course, nothing gives you better sense of security other than holding a hard,rather thick and concise clinical book in your sweaty hand when you are confronting a mean-looking consultant in the wards.
3. Dorlands - Medical dictionary,enough said
4. A2Z Drugs - when you need to refresh your memory about drugs and its actions, provided you knew them before of course.
5. 5 minutes Clinical Consult 2005 - recently installed, I personally don't use it much. I normally fall back on my books and the Oxford I had in my PDA.

I have been trying to utilise the PDA to help me with my studies. I used to have scribbled a lot on papers but as I am not a good organiser of my things, those papers where I have written some measly few critical notes,are sure hard to find at times. I still use paper and pen of course. PDA input,no matter how, is still slower than pen and paper. But the greatest thing I think you can do with my T3 is the voice recording of those sleep-inducing-insomnic-therapeutic lectures. That definitely beats the input of pen & paper provided there is not too much audio interference. Record, move it to my laptop and listen to the lectures I have slept through and....sleep again. PDAs, I tell you are quite evil at that, lull me into sleepiness in lectures because back in my heart I knew I won't miss much of it. At the end of day,when you playback the lecture you "missed",what you didn't realise is that there is a guy next to you who is having a bad time with his throat and coughing every now and then. Time to buy a friend lunch.....for lending you his notes. Okay,I know,all of us, at one time or another, have bought PDAs for entertainment on the pretext of "organising" your life.Hehe.... So far, I have only put in TextTwist and Sudoku into my T3 to make sure there is something to pass my time while waiting for friends or next lectures. My T3 could have doubled up as an MP3 player if I have space to spare of course in the 128mb SD. It's really time to get a bigger SD but things are quite expensive here as compared to Lowyat. Must tahan till end of year...... Since it is a second hand model I bought, I am considering to invest in a new battery. Palm as far as I know, don't have replaceable battery for T3. In fact,it should not be replaceable. So you got those dunno-what-company making batteries for T3,it will involve a little bit of screwing and unscrewing on your own to get it done,hoping that in the process of doing so, you didn't leave any damage to its innards. I just realised T3 has a volatile memory as compared to the newer Tx and T5.Volatile memory means the data stored inside the PDA(PDA storage and your SD card storage are 2 seperate storage) would be lost if it runs out power.Newer models won't experience that. Wonder what problem could have happen if I replace the battery. Maybe I shouldn't do anything to it ......yet.....

Deleting zero bytes files

Had a couple of botched downloads sitting on my desktop. They somehow turned into zero bytes undeletable files. Finally found a way around it thanks to google. 1. Close all open programs. 2. Open a command prompt. 3. Right-click the taskbar, and select task manager 4. On the Processes tab, select Explorer.exe, and click the End Process button. 5. Minimize Task Manager, but don't close it. 6. At the command prompt, use the delete command to remove the file, and close the command prompt. 7. In Task Manager, go to File | New Task (Run). 8. In the Create New Task dialog box, enter Explorer.exe, and click OK. 9. Close Task Manager. Hope this will help those having the same problems.

My "New" Companion

Just got myself a "new" companion - a Palm PDA. Well,it is not really new, I got it off ebay,so yeah,it is a second hand Tungsten T3. Been bugging YP with all sorts of questions about it,well she used to own the same model. Thanks a lot YP for your patience if you are reading this. It's been 4 days of "hotsyncing",frustations,googling and learning how to scribble all sorta characters on the tiny transflective screen.Just managed to link my laptop, handphone and T3 via bluetooth the other day.(Refer to previous post) There seems to be a lot of things this tiny rectangular gadget can do. Probably,like the rest of the medical students, I have installed some medical softwares into it and will see how it will assist me or my rather forgetful brain.Seems like 128 MB is not really enough. Looking at upgrading it to 512 mb or probably 1GB SD card. Will see how this little electronic companion complement my brain.......hopefully not the other way round...

Test

Test post from Tungsten T3

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Test post from Tungsten T3

My Human Growth Chart

Since my earliest memory was when I was 5 years old,I shall start with 5 5 y/o : "Cry and I will get my toy" 6 y/o : "Better do my homework, I don't want to be caned" 7 y/o : "No use crying, Dad is not going to get my toy anyhow" 8 y/o : "You reap what you sow" 9 y/o : "Good guys always win the bad guys" 10 : "Mosque is not pronounced as most-queue" 11 : "Dad seems to know and able to fix everything under the sun" 12 : "First major exam, must do well" 13 : "Hmm....strange. Why the rest of the students seem to be polarised?" 14 : "No,Mum.You don't need to hold my hand anymore. I wont get lost" 15 : "I think I know as much things as Dad.Oh by the way,Dad,this is what is written here......" 16 : "I can fix my computer better than my Dad,slowly catching up to the 324,657 things he can fix" 17 : "Good deeds are not always repaid with its equal" 18 : "OMG.....she sure is stunning.I can die happy already" 19 : "In life, efforts are not the only that decide things." 20 : "I know,I know, Dad. Study hard and I do not have to worry about funding. You said you will find a way.By the way, you gotta watch your blood pressure and sugar intake." 21 : "Life sometimes is just so not fair,it was never meant to be anyway." 21+ : "Air sure smells different in a westernised country but things are sure expensive here" Adios.

Anzac Day

Today is a public holiday for Australia and New Zealand,so I thought might as well do some update here,as urged by my dear Eugenia. So what is this ANZAC day all about?Did some searches throught wiki, our friendly web Mr Know-it-all. It stands for Australian and New Zealand Army Corps - ANZAC. Sounds a bit mitalitarist here, had a special day allocated to celebrate the army? Actually, the day is reserved to commomerate those who perished in the battle during the World War I,specifically the ANZAC,during the attack on the Gallipoli beach in Turkey.The ANZAC was the vanguard,as in being the first to rush to the battlefield.It is the D-day for the Australian and NZ army, like the D-day for Allied forces attacking German in France back then. However as Murphy's Law state, "anything that can go wrong, will go wrong",the navigators apparently screwed up then. Instead of landing at a coast where there is not-so-steep beach to advance,they landed at a coast facing a hill,tranlating a relatively walk by the seaside into an literally uphill task. From then on,the battle turned into a massacre of the invading army. It sorta reminds me of the Tugu Negara back in KL.The communists, Rundingan Baling and etc.Hmm....come to think of it,I haven't seen that Tugu for ages. Shall add to the things to do when I go back to Malaysia. I should be studying instead of reading some boring historical articles here. One more thing, just want to wish a Happy Belated Birthday to Yi Wei, Song and Sheena. Adios...

Introducing....... Amateur Transplants

Eternal Clerking(to the tune of Eternal Flame) Do come in, Please close the door, Thankyou, Tell me what's been the problem. How long has this been for? Does it feel the same? Is there any bleeding? With this burning, or just internal pain? Does it spread, to your back? Does it, sometimes wake you from sleeping? Are your motions black? Are you passing blood? Is it on the paper, Or mixed in with it? Just when did it start? How long ago? Tell me do you smoke? Take any medication? Have you ever had a stroke? Have you had rheumatic fever? No? Funny that. Close your eyes, Give me your hands, Say �ah�, I'll listen to your heart beating. Please say �ninety-nine�, �ninety-nine�, �ninety-nine�! You look a bit anaemic. Now here's some questions, we ask everyone� Say your name, What's the date today? When did World War 1 start? What's the current monarch�s name? Can you take seven from a hundred? Again! Again! Again! Again! Now what's the address I asked you to remember? Just sit back, Let me lie you flat, Tell me if I hurt you, And I'm sorry but after that, I need to pop a gentle finger in� Uh hum� Dry your eyes, Give me your hand, madam, Kindly stop with your weeping, You must understand, That we really need To investigate you �Cos you have got an intestinal bleed� Source So someone has beaten me to it....Darn....have to admire their creativity sometimes.

Life is nothing but a dream......

I was surfing through blogs when I came across this post by my fellow batchmate back in IMU, Adeline. She put into words very well thoughts I hope to banish aside. It brought back memories of my former schoolmates, a lot of whom I can put to the face of H mentioned. Many of them, I realised I have lost contact with or probably I did not try to keep in contact with them.I probably feared them. The friendly voices of optimism that were once spoken like brothers-in-arms were replaced with distinctively foreign voices of cynism, hardened by the dreams that we used to share.We worked so hard together believing that hard work will pay in the future.But their dreams were broken by the realities of life but not mine. I guessed I was really luckier. Some of them have to give up their dream totally in order to survive. I could be in their shoes if not for the lucky break I got to support my tertiary study. We used to scorn a mouthful on those lucky rich brats together but now we come to realise that my standing is probably not much different from those who used to scorn. I have crossed the line. In that, we grew apart. Friends come and go in life. I don't really believe the saying "The older you get, the more people you know, the less friend you have" but sometimes it sounded really true at times. Have I gotten more cynical?I hope I have not. I have always been the optimistic one. Thinking of some of the close friends I knew back then, if one of them was to rob me out of desperation one day, I wonder how would I feel or what would I say then?

Memories.....

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New Kids on the Blogs

Just updated the links to my peers' blogs

1. Linda
2. Zen
3. Collin
4. Sarah
5. Eugenia
6. Richard
7. Adeline
8. Ying Wei

Some of them have just picked up blogging, some of them have been blogging for quite some time. Been wanting to update my links for a while now but being a habitual procastinator for this....well.... Finally decided to do it today. I noticed the blog links at the M203 blog is not up to date. Perhaps someone with too much time on hand can probably update it.

A Month Away From Home

Camera : Sony DSC W-1 ; ISO200; f/2.8; 2 second exposure Somewhere near the Crown Casino in Melbourne Did anyone miss me or my bullshits here anyway?It has been a month since I have arrived in Melbourne. Guess what? It was my time on flight and destination is Melbourne. Nothing eventful actually happened during the most part of the flight. The dreaded "Mayday" didn't sound. The masks didn't pop down or anything. How to describe it? Hmm...got me thinking until I came up with something. It is like a bus ride on air. On second thought, a bus ride from KL to JB might just be more interesting than a flight. Well, at least I got to count the numbers of cars cutting queue using the emergency lane only to fight our friendly Traffic police waiting at the end of the lane. Can't suppress a chuckle at them at times. Serves them right nevertheless. But then again, they might just get away with it by becoming victims(or culprit?) of corruption itself. Or maybe a Honda-cup overtaking a BMW 3 series with the motorcyclist hanging on to it for his dear life. Or the bus overtaking the Honda-cup itself. So nothing much happened for the better part of the flight. No turbulence. No cases of AMI or emergency tracheostomy performed in flight. No delivery. Nothing. Zilch. Well, I must have imagined too much. Well, my first idea of flight when I was a kid was of those fighter jets. I wished I would become a pilot too then,despite the fact I don't even dare to get on a roller coaster and afraid of height. They sure look cool though. My interest in flights and planes continued until I was in secondary school when I started to realise it wasn't really a practical career and I got myopic,one of the big no-no I think in becoming a pilot. I think I am one of those few rare people who actually read the autobiography of the Wright brothers. I must be quite weird then,not to say I am not now. So now,I shall talk a bit about Melbourne. Well,where shall I start? Okay, Melbourne is quite a quiet place, much quieter than I expect it to be. There is a quite a big Asian community here.One can get quite a diversed range of Asian food here. Things here are definitely pricier as compared to Malaysia,unless you are earning your wage here on their term, you will be surprised at how cheap things actually are here. A good comparison would be,an hour worth of pay for part time jobs is enough to cover for 2 good meals here. I don't think you can get 2 meals worth if one works part time in Malaysia. Anyway,these are just my estimates. One thing I notice about their university here,is that, the lecturers take a lot of pride in their research activities and history. If I didn't hear wrongly, I think there is one Nobel prize laureaute or maybe a candidate working currently with them. I found out that people do ask a lot of questions here and they do ASK during ongoing lectures a lot actually as compared to those few crowding around the lecturer back in Malaysia. I guess it is part of the "Western" style or probably mentality of education. One good motto to live by here would be "thinking out loud," not mumbling to oneself for a change. Test in a week,signing off from Melbourne for the first time.

Chinese New Year: Past and Present

Chinese New Year celebration had changed over the years,at least for me. Maybe it was part of growing up,if not old.Still remember the times when we were kids? Ang pows seemed to be God-sent gifts,a little red packets containing money which could buy us probably 10 of our favourite ice-creams for every ang pow received.I remember there was once back in the early 90s, I received an ang-pow worth RM20,I was so estatic then. RM 20 then is a lot,considering a chicken rice then cost only RM2. Fast forward to 2006, the red packets seemed to be more colourful and more creative now. You can have geisha pictures on the ang pows promoting the movie, or even the hypermarket name, Carrefour or a lottery company such as Magnum printed on them,working as free ads. I wondered why haven't anyone printed ang pow with our PDRM logo and the motto "Saya anti-rasuah." At least, I can express my courtesy, by greeting them "Gong Xi Fa Cai," whenever I was asked to pit my car in the pit stop they set up at the busiest road with the longest traffics. Besides, those ang pows would not be out of season. So much for the packaging,now for the contents. Ang pows,for me, very rarely break RM20 and never reach RM 50.This year though, I got a few "extra" ang pows,one is for the Chinese New Year itself and another is for luck in continuing my study in overseas. Well,over the years,much have changed. We used to have a lot of firecrackers being lit during Chinese New Year,so much so that one might tinnitus after prolonged exposured to high decibels of the explosive little toys.I am not talking about those red firecrackers only here. Probably it is part of growing up, my brothers,my cousins and I have all grown out of it. Now, firecrackers are still being lit,albeit much less,especially in KL. One can get it if one knows where to get it. Not that I know though. Anyway, we still light up those red firecrackers every Chinese New Year,as if to keep the tradition alive. I guess it s one of the good points of staying far inside an oil palm plantation. Why does Sabah and Sarawak suddenly come to my mind? Hmm....,anyway it was said to be used to drive bad luck and bring good luck to the family - something like that. This post has been sitting in my draft for a very long time but I was busy preparing for my departure arrangements.

Career choice....

How about something different for a change?

Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking ("Stoning")

You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal i.e. first to dive,first to die You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk,i.e., you are good at telling lies, crapping, delegating and talking more crap. You should major in: Philosophy i.e. primum non nocere Music i.e. Littman Cardiac Auscultation series Theology i.e. "Ohmigod,(fill in your surprise/rant/shout/etc here)" Art i.e. X-rays,ECG, MRI and Cat History (Taking) Foreign language i.e Angiostrongylus, Leptospira,Kingella and etc.

What Should You Major In?

I am just doing this for fun.

The Past is a Prologue

And so all of us left, in such a hurry, where some goodbyes were said, some hugs were given, some tears were wiped,memories shared and one end is another beginning. In years to come, I would look back on my life in IMU,perhaps some moments are worth engraved in my memories. .....I got to know 3 very wonderful Orientation Officers; Aiky, Raymond and Ue.Had some real badass laughter and experience then. ....I got to know a wonderful orientation group; Yee Pei, Yean Koon, Caryn, Rassam,Zi Sien,Giap Heng,Yee Sin,Zakiy...wonder did I miss out anybody? ....I got crowned as the best 3 point shooter,which is much of a fluke than skill. ....I got injured for my first IMU Cup basketball campaign - swollen knee due to synovitis. Was quite heart broken then for it was the first time I broke into a basketball team,even as a bench-warmer. .....I got to know that Sheena was loud and clear, Phang was big and blur. .....I found out Richard was born a day before me, Yean Koon was born a year before me. .....I got to know a person who is probably my relatives a thousand years ago,another Xiao .....I couldn't believe at one time,my entertainment came in the form of happytreefriends. .....I got to know that Shi Ching was second to me in crapping business,but always above me in study. .....I realised I knew a former national celebrity in Yi Wei,then only I found out she is quite a monkey. .....I remembered exolphthalmus by looking at Yee Pei when she was angry:p hehe .....I got to know Ken Jay well when I helped to change his flat tyre and he still owed me a meal over it.Wait a minute,did he? .....I can't dance well,a fact pointed to me by Evelyn. .....I was the only one from my batch who joined the breakdance workshop then. Conclusion,breakdance is not and will never be my thing. .....I was really there for all the matches of M2/03 soccer team's first championship winning season as a supporter and a photographer.Some thought I was the manager because I was still wearing my tie to some of the matches. .....I realised the girl with the shortest name I knew was Linda.Does she even have a Chinese name? .....I never expect to meet Rajinder who was my senior back in secondary school. .....I realised the girls with the shortest frame,I don't really know for there are quite a few contenders. .....I knew Jeremy Robert when he badly injured his ankle during one of the IMU Cup soccer match. .....I found out Aravind was a very strong and responsible person.Correction,he was a bloody strong fella. .....I didn't know Adrian was such a good basketball player when I first met him. .....I found out Justin was quite an idol in the basketball team. .....I found out Woei Ti was very talkative on the court. .....I got to know Chong Hann and Teng Hong during IMU Cup. .....I realised that TJ couldn't grasp our comminucation in Mandarin while on the court. .....I remembered Hiong Chin was immortalised by the banana dance then. .....I couldn't really tell Tean Chun and Daniel in the dimness of the court that I always mistook their names when naming substitution. .....I only got to know Shi Ching during the first elective,who then became my dive buddy and buddy in uni.Before that,it was just another name without a face I could put to. .....I was told that ladies' asses are fatter and thus they float,a fact proven to a certain extent by Nadia and Elena,both of whom I got to know during the diving electives too.Okay,it was just some bullshit I came up with. .....I found out that Paya could sing Cantonese song better than me. .....I couldn't pinpoint the origin of Priya's accent.She spoke with an accent right or I heard wrongly? .....I foolishly believed what Zen told me about her brown colour eyes being some disease which I found out much later it was the colour contacts. .....I found out that Faez is a bloody sturdy and solid defender and yet he told me in PBL in Sem1 "I play footbal so-so ONLY." .....I realised we had quite a small but agile keeper in Shamsul.His replacement,Iqbal was quite big-sized though. .....I can't believe Jan Hoong is such a tall soccer player and he's not a goalkeeper or defender but a playmaker. .....I can never see that Rassam was such a good soccer player and swimmer during orientation. .....I am quite envious of Grace for being so multi-talented. .....I always played the role of lamp-post when I went out with Tu Lip and Lee Teng. .....I thought Sharon always looked well before her age,so was Caryn. .....I only got to know Sooth Jiun after I offered her my spare umbrella.I didn't know who she really was when I offered it. .....I thought Shiva was quite a joker,he could keep a straight face when telling a joke.Wait,maybe he didn't mean it to be a joke in the first place. .....I broke Ivy's hard work on the styrofoam with a misbounced basketball and probably her heart too then.Did I see her sobbing or was it because of the booze I drank then? .....I am jinxed for IMU Cup,got myself injured again just days before the 2nd IMU Cup basketball competition starts. .....I realised Shu Jin could really sprint and Jen Sen couldn't be depended upon for the long distance. .....I was practically blinded during the IMU Ball 2004 for I dropped both my contacts and I left my spare in Calvin's house.I couldn't make out most of the people during the ball. .....I did ask for a girl in the batch to be my date for IMU Ball 2005 but got rejected. .....I realised there were 3 people born on 22nd April;Sheena, Yi Wei and another person who just slipped my mind. .....I respect Chee Wing's guts in joining an open dance competition. .....I am envious of Caryn who knew quite a variety of dance and can dance well too. .....I found out that Jasveen is a cousin of Rajinder only in Semester 5. .....I found out that Herbert is Adeline Teo's uncle not too long before that. .....I found out Ken Lin could play futsal much better than me.She really kicks ass!!! .....I couldn't believe it when Teng told me he was an advanced diver with 50+ dives. .....I addressed Jong Khen "Uncle Chin" and he is quite good in mahjong. .....I always thought Pastor Sivin looked a lot like the Peter I knew.Well,during the CF camp, I had the idea that both of them were really related. .....I thought Yen Shi had quite a good surprise on her 21st birthday planned by Song.More than ten of us went in three cars to her house to give her an unexpected birthday surprise.Her Mum even "conspired" with us to make it a total surprise. .....I finally won some medal in IMU Cup 2005.Bronze in basketball,gold in cheerleading. .....I dared Shi Ching to join the cheerleading in 2004,he did and I didn't keep my promise by joining.Joined it in the last IMU Cup in 2005. .....I couldn't believe I ran a 37.9 Celcius fever 3 days before cheerleading competition day and Yi Wei still got me down on the floor practising.I seemed to have a bad luck in sports-related activities. .....I learned that "fat" is a big no-no word during cheerleading.The girls aren't heavy,the guys are just weak:p .....I only got to know Katherine when she represented our batch in basketball.She was quite good at it,I must say.But I guessed she would be remembered by most by her dress during IMU Ball 2005. .....I couldn't believe I shouted at the whole batch with the microphone in my hand. .....I couldn't believe I have participated in the orientation in my whole 5 semesters. .....I realised I would,for the first time,would not be in the same learning institution,with Soon Liang,after this year. I have been drafting this entry for pretty long time.Well,these were just some of the highlights of the more significant recollection with people I met in university. There was still quite a substantial amount of people I didn't mention though.To those mentioned,thank you.To those not mentioned,thank you too. M2/03,I hereby,wish all of you,smooth sailing ahead.

Next Station....

I just can't seem to find the words to express my feelings right now after the official completion of Phase I of my medical study. The past 2 years plus in university had been quite an experience. One chapter ended and another begun. The phase II of my study will commence in early February. I am grateful that I have met many interesting people over the past years. To those whom I have stepped on their tails,I am sorry. To those who have helped me in any way,I am thankful. It's been quite an interesting 2 and a half years here. Probably the memory of me shouting at the whole batch during the last few weeks of study would be replayed times and again in the thoughts of some. If that's how I am remembered,don't worry, I won't mind. I really doubt I would ever forget my great orientation officers who did so much for a smooth transition into university life : Aiky, Raymond and Ue. I would never forget the pretty handiwork of YP and Caryn on my nails. The Kenyan was at its innocent best then too. Little did I know in my group then was another girl who shared the same birthday as me. Entering university then was quite an achievement for me, and now finishing the Phase I,I am quite relieved that I am halfway through the journey.The pressure on me passing the Final exam then was more than I can take with a few distractions here and there. I am glad that I have made it,although slightly below expectations,hopefully it will suffice to carry me through the next phase. Here I would like to thank all the people I met for making my university life such a great time. I also wish to apologise for the people I have hurt intentionally or unintentionally with my sarcasm. Best of luck to the batch of M2/03. You guys rocks!!!

D-day...

...so it has begun.

First Gate..

The first gate of a young hot-tempered,William-Hung like somewhat not so bright, aspiring medical student. I have been preaching in the library: 有读不怕FAIL!!!

A doc's meme?

Recently,I came across this "meme" on a public website,I thought it might be fun to spend a little time away from the books and notes. I am bored so I am doing this based on an assumption I have passed the coming exam and fast forward 3 years after,voila, I am called a doctor(pronounced "dog-ter") 1. Are you happy with how the government is treating you as a doctor ? No 2. Are you happy during your internship life ? It is one of the toughest I heard, maybe for the first few years I would be happy, come on,after all the books mugging,finally can get down to real business.

3. Are you happy with your income ? Definitely not,considering the amount of money my parents have put in.

4. Are you happy with what you provide to the people ? It should be the way round, I thought?Are they happy with what I provide?If you mean, the nasi lemak I just bought the nurses,they are very happy.

5. Are you happy with the hospital policy ? Regarding the treatment protocols you mean?They certainly have to abide by some WHO standard kinda thingie. If you mean office politics, oh well,it happens everywhere,but, considering I always try to stick with ZOPFAN, I won't have to watch over my back all the time.

6. Do you have a home of your own now ? Hmm....25 years,that's the house loan I have taken,currently co-own with the bank:p

7. Is your mortgage manageable ? Considering,I purchased a second hand Wira and a single storey terrace in Seremban. Yeah,they are manageable.

8. Are you happy with what you see around you ? The family who strived so hard to put me through hell in medical school, yes, I am happy to that they are alive and kicking. If hell wasn't that bad, heaven won't be this nice either.

9. Are you happy with the care that ordinary people get in Malaysia ? Again,I thought it should be the other way round.

10. Are you happy to see private hospital creating millionaire doctors , whilst the public doctors going nowhere ? They would look at Bill Gates the same way if they've achieved millionaire status. I wasn't born with a silver spoon.I am always taught to be grateful with what I have thanks to strong family upbringing. I won't be happy if they purposely show off their riches to me, of course. Of course, I am happy with what I have, a reliable car, a roof over my head and I just saw a girl whom I like yesterday.

11. Are you happy with the price you pay for your house hold, compare to the amount you get from your hard work ? This is a toughie. I am okay with the price I paid,but I am definitely not happy with my pay. The same goes for everywhere in the world anyway.

12. Are you happy with the hospital equipment and facilities back home ? Yes,I am happy with them. Some so-called modern medical equipments are overrated, they just cater to the paying rich to impress them, rather than having significant advantage diagnostic wise. The equipments provided at the government hospitals provide a broad coverage for the diseases commonly seen here according to epidemiologic study. Although it might be cruel to be unable to diagnose certain specific disease without some modern equipments, the money saved from purchasing those state of the art equipments can be used to save a lot more others. Sometimes, the greatest equipment can be your mind. My point? Greater good.

13. Are you happy with the on call rota ? Let just say I am sastified but not happy, it's not that I get 10 cases per hour throughout my call. IF it's 10 cases per hour, it's definitely not worth it.

14. Are you happy to see other people prosper not needing to go thru medical school ? Yeah,they never been through hell. They should be eternally grateful.

Answer all this question before you say what’s right or wrong about us not returning. You are no saint, I understand but some people called me devil while in medical school. Er...I am at a lower moral ground.

If you have the same opportunity Would you not do the same ? Since our circumstances vary,I would assume the opportunity is to tear the bond paper. My sponsors who happened to be my parents would not be happy, put it to an extreme, I am robbing them.IF I do rob them, they won't surrender me to the police too.Yet,I would choose to repay their deed. Their contract is something I can and will never tear. If my kids were to do that to me, I won't be happy either.

P.S. I am still a medical student,just passing my time. This is a blog,and this is also the net, anything written on the screen can be taken as real as elephant jumbo flying in the sky flapping their ears.

On a sidenote, Good luck to all M203s who would be having their exam on Monday. (Hey,you guys are supposed to wish me too if you are reading this:p)

Shall pen a post of gratitude after my exam.

Hope all is well.